Today is Father's Day. Its always been a strange holiday for me. I didn't know who my biological father was until I was 16, which made things really akward. Once you get to this point in your life bonding becomes impossible. My father and I had little in common and we missed all of the good bonding moments in life. My gramdfather died before I even knew who my father. Both of them were heavy into auto racing. I probably would have loved this, but missed that chance.
I know have a son of my own. He is adopted from the Philippines. We have been honest with Joseph about his adoption and I think that is for the best. He also has a Mother, Father and brother in the Philippines whom someday he will hopefully get to meet, but he too with have that same awkwardness I had with my father.
I guess it really goes back to something I had mentioned in an earlier blog: "In life, we're usually closer to those that are not related to us than those who are." This of course is probably more focused on me than everyone else, but It really applies to everyone. I mean you're not really related to your spouse, and If you are you're probably from Kentucky. ;-)
Monday, June 10, 2013
Like everyone else, I was bit traumatized by the red wedding. I knew it was coming and it still scarred me for life. Thank God that wasn't the end of the season. It was nice to get a glimpse of everyone after the trauma. I especially liked Tyrion's "I'm a monster. Then you should be scared. Kings are dying all the time around here." I will miss Game of Thrones. I love the show, but I did find this season to be a bit slow. I hope they pick up the pace a bit. At work, I am the resident expert. Thanks god I read articles after each show as I even have trouble keeping all the characters straight.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
I have literally done nothing this weekend. I did go into work and copy a VM so that I could work from home. My work laptop has been down for the past three weeks. I got it back yesterday and it was still broken. I am not terribly happy. My job has been going through changes between the company changing and sequester, things are not looking good for future employment. I feel the need to really work many more hours than I should just to keep ahead. I am trying to stay positive and I do think if all goes wrong, I'll find another job, but I don't really want to do this. I think we all strive to stick with things that feel safe to us. I think at some point, I'll have to try something new just to expand my experiences. I've basically been writing the same code over and over for 11 years. I should be brave at some point and venture out into the wild.